holding my babies tight tonight

I've been sitting around in a daze all day since I heard the devastating news about the school shooting today in Connecticut.

This evening, about an hour after I put my kids to bed, I had this sudden, frantic urge to hold one of them.

So, I went upstairs, hoping one of my children was still awake so I could climb into bed with them.

All of them but one were snoring.

I found Joseph in his room with the lights on, tossing and turning in bed.

I turned the lights out, tucked him in, and laid down on the bed next to him.

I watched him and studied his beautiful little face.
I stroked his sandy blond hair.
I put my arms around him and held him so tightly.

And the tears started to roll down my cheeks.

I thought about all of the mommies out there in Connecticut who don't have their babies to tuck into bed tonight.

So horribly sad.

I don't have the words to say. I don't even know how to pray.

All I can say is,

Come, Lord Jesus!